So Sad

With all this pain in my heart I look at the ultrasound in my hand
I hold it firmly – and don’t ever want to let go
This one photo is my only memory of you

You still were so litlle, so vulnerable
You were taken away from me at four months
Why is it that you only were allowed to see so little of this world

I am so sad – I didn’t want to lose you…

My unborn child

There was a child living inside me
something that came from our love
something tiny that would blossom in me
something we created, all by ourselfs

and now it hurts so much
that I couldn’t give it anything
that we cannot be a family
and I couldn’t keep it alive

Vision Divine – Letter To My Child Never Born

I cannot help sometimes
To think about how life
Can change in many ways
And let you down in pain
And thoughts, they run so fast
They get till outer space
Where stars are painting skies
With marvelous pure lights

Over there, yes, I saw you
Among a billion stars I found your one
These few lines are for you
For the child that could
But has not come to life in this blue world
And this message’s for you
Hope it helps you not to
Feel so lone and forsaken in sorrow

…Letter to my child never born…

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